Recently, actually right now, as i'm writing this, the guy I have been seeing on and off told me that he wants to be 'alone' for awhile, and take a break from even banging out. Although this is an easy way to let a girl down, I know factually that he will be on the prowl tonight looking for new booty to squeeze. So, yeah, I'm kinda bummed. But then, I said to myself, "what kind of pep-talk would my oh-so-awkwardly pubescent yet hopeful and optimistic 13 year old self give myself right now?"
In my fantasy day-dream land, I see my acne and braces clad face smiling singing cuts off of Frank Zappa and The Mothers of Inventions first album Freak Out.
So thats what I did. I put on 'How Could I Be Such a Fool' and sang it right to him. I didn't give a fuck. Then I played 'Go Cry On Somebody Else's Shoulder'. Heated eye contact ensued. Laughter also ensued. I knew I was being ridiculous, and he knew I was being ridiculous, but he let me do my thing and it only continued. I then moved on to 'Nan' by Ween to make an extra poignant statement. It felt damn good, i'll tell ya what.
I always knew playing endless Mario Kart while listening to Zappa and Ween would help me out at some point. Today was that day. Thanks.
side note: I'm writing this on the dudes laptop right now. bout to bounce and holler at new boyz.
xoxox Mission GF